Sunday, March 18, 2007

Trips and Nostalgia ... and moving on

Today i got back from a trip to the Smokey Mountains. The Mountains were beautiful and the trip was nice too. Other than the glitches that have to be, on every trip, it was good and the only bad part is that i have a mid-term tomorrow, and have to study for it right now. And that is precisely what i am not doing. Wasting time becomes a pretty delicious preoccupation if you are on an incredibly tight schedule. And the easiest way to get me to spend time is pull out old memories. For being the nostalgic person that i am, I can pull out old photos and get lost for hours. As I am right now, when i should be studying for that exam instead.
But this is delicious and this is now and i get lost in it anyway. Looking that these photos i realize that i have come a traveled a long way in my life. Until now i thought that i can easily list the trips i had been on and the people with whom i went . There are the trips which i am going on now. There were those that i went on earlier in college. The friends who were together for a brief period of time, and when we were really getting close, college ended and we had to leave. Now we would just be aquantainces and after five years just names. Just like those in my junior college. I can barely remember the names of all the people i used to spend so much time with. And this list of trips and names would go on, but it would be an incredibly long and boring ... probably even for me ! Maybe, that just means that i am not as young as i would like to think.
But looking at all these photos helped me realise something. That life is moving rather fast now.
And that all the notions that i have about it are slowly falling apart. I generally accept change but now i find that while i am still living the same life i used to , all my friends have already moved on. Everyone else is leading a different life. And though there are intersections, they are just that. Brief meetings having a good time. Just like in दिल चाहता हॆ. Those three did have that one trip together at the end. And maybe they might have one after five more years. But they were different people. And so am i now. A different person than i was in college.
My life as a whole and I in the center of it all have changed in ways that i cannot come to terms with just as yet.